There are topics I wanted to write about in this blog, but right now it seems so inappropriate to talk about me, my lost future as a mother, and my problems with my childless life while a terrible, cruel war is raging in Europe. I don't even know how to put my thoughts into the right words.
Yes, war in Europe. I never thought that something like this could happen again after World War II.
I think of the thousands of people forced to leave behind literally everything they have. They have to leave their old lives behind with only a suitcase and in some cases not even that. My problems seem to disappear when I think of the lost hopes and lost futures that many, many, many people in Ukraine and also in Russia are suffering right now.
All because of this terrible, mad tyrant who, together with his generals and aides, prepared this insane war for years and has now started it.
The world will never be the same again, and I am speechless and numb when I think about it.
I am also impressed by the bravery of the Ukrainian people who are defending their country and their democracy, and I am impressed by the many Russians who demonstrate against this terrible war, even though they will most likely be arrested for doing so. I don't know if I would be so brave.
It gives me hope that Europe and its partners is standing together. I am so glad that humanity and democracy, freedom of speech and all these values still count in the western world, and I really hope that they will count all my life.
I know that there are still moments when the world and its problems are not important to me. Yes, there are moments when I feel lonely and sad, when I try to cope with my lost future. I allow that to happen and then try to let it go. There are more important things in life right now than the fact that I am childless.